Lilac Window

Here is another painting I just finished. It is going in a little art show at a comic shop in Edmonton – called “Happy Harbour”. Its depiction of the superhero mom, at a early point in her superhero career. She is dealing with her ability to actually get stuff done. The text from it is below. I am trying to decide if I should include the text or not….

The months, years of trying so desperately to somehow “get on top of things” rush over me. The ceaseless effort, days of working to the bone, sleepness nights going over errands, keeping every thing in a constant state of managed disaster. I finally feel the exhaustion of all that effort. I feel like the past years have been spent with a n enormous ball of all my families stuff, and its tied with strings and ropes together, rolling down a hill, and I am running, directing, using every effort to keep the thing from coming apart at the seams.

And after years of running finally, we have landed in a meadow, the ropes have come undone and like a miracle, each item has fallen into its beautiful place. And I am a witness to its simplicity.

I sit away from it, afraid I will mess it up again, even though the furniture is brilliant in the sunshine, and the flowers in vases on glass coffee tables tell me “its OK”

Time. It goes so slow.

One second, one minute

One minute one day, A day, a week

The milliseconds tick by.

Im still sitting here

I can disappear between seconds

The dusted glassware, folded scented laundry, the perfectly manicured meal in the oven.

Still and quiet these things shards in my conscience, each one exists in this quiet, and each one is still, like me. I day dream of each crystal glass and bowl smashing on the floor in front of me. Shattered, like the hours that used to feel so solid.

I want…so badly….to be perfect.

I’ve never felt more singular than at this moment.

in one second the dinner is ready and the kitchen has been painted orange

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